I thought I'd come by and see what happened to this blog.
I don't even remember putting the photo's of my room up. I thought I still had to do that, but apparently I already did.
The point of the photo's is to show the mess and the fact that I can actually live in it.
Oftentimes when I go over to a friends place, they apologize for the mess in their room, but I'm like: What mess? (And in my mind I laugh so hard, because they find thát messy, I can't imagine how stressed they must be keeping everything neat and clean or how they would go completely mental if they had to live in my room.)
I also put them up so you could see what it looked like (although it's difficult to see that on pictures -the room is about 2 x 4 meters I think).
So, I was really surprised about how much I already had on the blog, I expected way less, but maybe it just looks like a lot, because of the pictures. I really want to start writing regularly, but maybe that would be easier if I had some public and feedback. Doesn't matter though, I need to learn to write for myself too.
Moving on, last night (this morning actually) I joined an online group for people with ADD and ADHD. I got on the site because I was looking for information about hyperfocus and left a comment. Then I saw there were a lot of people there just like me in character and I really enjoyed that, so I just joined immediately. I'm not saying I necessarily have ADD, but chances are, I have. Undiagnosed of course, but if I'm not mistaken there is supposed to be some sort of test or appointment about it sometime soon.
I don't know why, but all of a sudden I had to think about Edward Scissorhands. (And while writing, I noticed how unlogical "scissors" is written.) A few weeks ago Edward Scissorhands was on tv so I looked up who made the movie. It was Tim Burton. I checked what other movies he had made and turns out I'm a big fan of him and his movies. Also he's made friends and a lot of movies with... Johnny Depp! Whose movies I also enjoy a lot. But enough about that.
At the moment I have 26 tabs open in Firefox. Two of them have been open for tree days now! I don't know if I already said this or if you've noticed, but I have quite a wide range of interests. I'll sum them up sometime soon. ('Soon' probably means in a few months...) But I have tabs about daydreaming, how to scream, a lot about hyperfocus and ADD, this and the first tab is... my mailbox of course.
It's exactly why I looked up 'hyperfocus': I can never concentrate on one thing. I always have to multitask. I get distracted too easily. That kinda goes like this:
First thing I do is checking my mailbox, sorting all the mail out and then read them. I read one thing, make some connection to something else (sometimes I put a lot of links really fast and to most people it doesn't make sense -sometimes it really is unlogical though) and I have to look up that thing right then and there, because otherwise I'll surely forget about it! So I leave my mailbox open and look up a picture (I look up pictures more often than I do information, probably because I'm more of a visual thinker). Then I try another way of describing the thing and see another picture I find interesting -there goes another search! Then eventually someone starts talking to me or I really have to go to the bathroom and something else catches my attention or I remember something or think I still had to check all my mail. So another search, or back to the mailbox. And sometimes -rarely though- I have some tabs open, that I should've closed three days ago, but I can't, because I still need to read it or see it or hear it or do it or whatever.
I think I'll work on closing those tabs now, I'll leave this open in case I really need to write something down that I need to share with the world.
