Okay, forget whatever I wrote in the last few posts and let me tell you in a nutshell what happened so far:
I've had a boyfriend, broke up, can't stand him now, Drama at home cause they found out about him, my mom hallucinates a whole lotta crap when she wants to overreact, The Drama messed me up good and after almost six months (5.5), it's still in my mind...
Now a new year of school has started: I'm slowly getting familiar in Weedworld (*flashes a peek at blogname*), I am slightly in like with an M named person. Q never met M, hardly knows anything about M, but doesn't like M, cause M's "a druggie". I'm really disliking Q for it, we're really growing apart. And then I'm also breaking my head about what I should study next year.
So, now you know that, let's talk about things with a somewhat less depressing undertone!
Yes, yes, it's that time of the year again, that month, November: I'm participating in NaNoWriMo again and this time, I planned on finishing! The only problem with that, is that I barely have an idea or plot to be writing about. It starts in 3 hours and 15 minutes. Is there anyone out there that can help me with this? If so; just telepathically send me a message.
And lastly, I'm back to working on my goals again.
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
School
I've been thinking. About school. And about why no one likes it. (No, I'm not a teacher, still go to high school myself.) I'm not saying that I love school, but I don't hate it either. I developed so much there! Internet was a great, huge help for me, but since "07, school has been too. After all, I know my best friends from school.
Besides social development, which most people hardly think about, school is mainly known for studying, learning and the most notorious of all: homework.
I'm a 'look it up on the internet' kid. In the old days, I guess I would've been one of those people that's in the library all the time. Maybe. Or not? Because (not to stereotype library kids, but) I'm also very social and I do like sports. I like gaming and writing, drawing, painting and riddle like things (thinking). I'd love to travel the world some day and learning new languages is pretty fun! (Or does that sound really geeky anyway?)
What I'm trying to say, is that I like all kinds of things and most of those things involve learning. Yes, that thing that you do in school as well (except that you don't do it, because it's mandatory and therefore don't like it, of course :P).
I didn't realize that until recently and shortly after being aware of that, I also noticed that almost all of the things I (and a lot of other people) do and like, can easily be related to schoolsubjects.
Traveling? Geography!
Skateboarding? P.E.!
Contortion? P.E.!
Writing? English/Dutch!
Drawing and painting? Arts!
Thinking games? Maths or philosophy!
Learning another language? Well, I'm almost sure they teach a second language in every school (at least here they do, I get German, which is a third language, even).
Like those things, there are tons of other fun things that evidently have to do with a subject, given in school.
So I wonder... why? Why can't school be more fun than it actually is? And what is it that schools seem to do, that make us want to go to that school (I'm talking about when you go to an open night, when you change schools or on TV or something)?
Fun. That's exactly what it is. They make up fun activities the kids can do while they roam through the polished up school (and really, my cheap-ass school actually does that, only when parents are supposed to come over for an open night or something).
But that's all just to lure those kids into wanting to go to that school and have the non expecting people pay the greedy *fill-in-some-creative-word-here*.
Truth is, there are never great, fun, exciting activities like that. Not at all! There are just boring classes, just like in any other school. What makes one school more fun than the other one, are simply the people. The teachers and the other students.
Of course, there can be activities. But in my experience, no one wanted to do them, before even knowing what it was we were going to do. Are kids "these days" just really that pessimistic, that depressing or just plain boring?
Instead of whining, why not try to see the fun in things and try to make the best of it, trying to have a good time, since, if you think about it, it's not thát bad?
I know I'm probably sounding like some perky, optimistic, happy hippiekid, with a rainbowshirt and happy little ponytails. I'm not. In fact, I can be pretty darn pessimistic, sarcastic and aggressive at times. (I try to avoid that though.)
But mainly, I'm all about the fun. I don't see the point in (acting like I'm) not having a good time. It's such a waste of time! You only live for so long. For now, most of the time you'll be spending in school. So, being cranky whenever you're at school or doing something for school, would be SUCH a HUGE WASTE OF TIME! Time that you're never going to get back. Not ever again!
But, I'm not putting all the blame with my fellow students of course. Like I said, so many things that I and many other people do, can be related to school things. Then seriously, WHY are those classes so boring all the time? It really seems to me that those *insert-another-creative-word-for-people* are deliberately trying to make our school lives miserable.
At geography, why didn't they ever teach us places with funny names? There are actually places called Fucking, Hell, three places called Anus... Come on, why aren't they telling us that?
In arts class (well, this is probably different in most schools, but) why don't they teach us the techniques to draw certain ways? In my school all we get is a damned assignment. But the techniques, the secrets, the tips, everything interesting... We'll just have to figure that out ourselves.
Why not teach manga as a basic? It's said to be the second easiest way of drawing (expressionism/kindergarten stuff taking the first place). A lot of people want to learn it, then why not teach it? Give extra credit or another assignment to kids that can already do it or are good at it and have tips and things to provide for the class.
At gymnastics, why always dodge ball? And if your school is ancient, you might be thinking: why always rope climbing and running around six fields? Just give us something to look forward to, already! Invent some new sport. Have us invent a new sport! Introduce us to an uncommon sport.
At least explain to us about exercising. How many people want to lose weight, but don't know exactly how to or aren't doing the right exercises? Well, I can tell you; a lot! Learning this stuff in school would benefit so many people. Especially in America it could help with the tremendous obesity problem.
Otherwise; just let the kids choose one or two sports, have a warming up together and then, instead of letting everyone do things only three kids like/are good at, let everyone just do the sport they chose. Okay, sure there'd have to be more teachers to watch over all those kids, all of them doing different things. But instead of spending the schools money on all that equipment, that's hardly ever used, send the kids to some sportsclub or something!
Just build one huge gym, especially for schools. One gym per *depends on how many schools there are in a certain diameter*. One that has things that include equipment for most of the interests of the kids (for example a mini skatepark, a little fitnesscenter, a pool, stuff for the the gymnasts and the dancers). For this idea there would have to be teachers too, of course, but with all the schools that share that gym, there's bound to be at least ONE teacher that knows how to handle one of the sports. And otherwise, at least there are enough teachers to keep an eye out for falling kids and everything.
Because of all the different schools, there are also a lot of new people to meet.
After school, in weekends (at least on Saturday) kids (and teachers) could go there, they'd just have to show their schoolpass and can go in for free.
Well that was my incredibly sudden burst of whatever.
The point I'm trying to make, is that school can be fun if we make it fun, but it can be even more fun if the school makes it more fun for us. Sure there can be certain things that are essential to learn for a future career, but how about mixing that up with some of the more fun stuff in the subjects, huh?
Besides social development, which most people hardly think about, school is mainly known for studying, learning and the most notorious of all: homework.
I'm a 'look it up on the internet' kid. In the old days, I guess I would've been one of those people that's in the library all the time. Maybe. Or not? Because (not to stereotype library kids, but) I'm also very social and I do like sports. I like gaming and writing, drawing, painting and riddle like things (thinking). I'd love to travel the world some day and learning new languages is pretty fun! (Or does that sound really geeky anyway?)
What I'm trying to say, is that I like all kinds of things and most of those things involve learning. Yes, that thing that you do in school as well (except that you don't do it, because it's mandatory and therefore don't like it, of course :P).
I didn't realize that until recently and shortly after being aware of that, I also noticed that almost all of the things I (and a lot of other people) do and like, can easily be related to schoolsubjects.
Traveling? Geography!
Skateboarding? P.E.!
Contortion? P.E.!
Writing? English/Dutch!
Drawing and painting? Arts!
Thinking games? Maths or philosophy!
Learning another language? Well, I'm almost sure they teach a second language in every school (at least here they do, I get German, which is a third language, even).
Like those things, there are tons of other fun things that evidently have to do with a subject, given in school.
So I wonder... why? Why can't school be more fun than it actually is? And what is it that schools seem to do, that make us want to go to that school (I'm talking about when you go to an open night, when you change schools or on TV or something)?
Fun. That's exactly what it is. They make up fun activities the kids can do while they roam through the polished up school (and really, my cheap-ass school actually does that, only when parents are supposed to come over for an open night or something).
But that's all just to lure those kids into wanting to go to that school and have the non expecting people pay the greedy *fill-in-some-creative-word-here*.
Truth is, there are never great, fun, exciting activities like that. Not at all! There are just boring classes, just like in any other school. What makes one school more fun than the other one, are simply the people. The teachers and the other students.
Of course, there can be activities. But in my experience, no one wanted to do them, before even knowing what it was we were going to do. Are kids "these days" just really that pessimistic, that depressing or just plain boring?
Instead of whining, why not try to see the fun in things and try to make the best of it, trying to have a good time, since, if you think about it, it's not thát bad?
I know I'm probably sounding like some perky, optimistic, happy hippiekid, with a rainbowshirt and happy little ponytails. I'm not. In fact, I can be pretty darn pessimistic, sarcastic and aggressive at times. (I try to avoid that though.)
But mainly, I'm all about the fun. I don't see the point in (acting like I'm) not having a good time. It's such a waste of time! You only live for so long. For now, most of the time you'll be spending in school. So, being cranky whenever you're at school or doing something for school, would be SUCH a HUGE WASTE OF TIME! Time that you're never going to get back. Not ever again!
But, I'm not putting all the blame with my fellow students of course. Like I said, so many things that I and many other people do, can be related to school things. Then seriously, WHY are those classes so boring all the time? It really seems to me that those *insert-another-creative-word-for-people* are deliberately trying to make our school lives miserable.
At geography, why didn't they ever teach us places with funny names? There are actually places called Fucking, Hell, three places called Anus... Come on, why aren't they telling us that?
In arts class (well, this is probably different in most schools, but) why don't they teach us the techniques to draw certain ways? In my school all we get is a damned assignment. But the techniques, the secrets, the tips, everything interesting... We'll just have to figure that out ourselves.
Why not teach manga as a basic? It's said to be the second easiest way of drawing (expressionism/kindergarten stuff taking the first place). A lot of people want to learn it, then why not teach it? Give extra credit or another assignment to kids that can already do it or are good at it and have tips and things to provide for the class.
At gymnastics, why always dodge ball? And if your school is ancient, you might be thinking: why always rope climbing and running around six fields? Just give us something to look forward to, already! Invent some new sport. Have us invent a new sport! Introduce us to an uncommon sport.
At least explain to us about exercising. How many people want to lose weight, but don't know exactly how to or aren't doing the right exercises? Well, I can tell you; a lot! Learning this stuff in school would benefit so many people. Especially in America it could help with the tremendous obesity problem.
Otherwise; just let the kids choose one or two sports, have a warming up together and then, instead of letting everyone do things only three kids like/are good at, let everyone just do the sport they chose. Okay, sure there'd have to be more teachers to watch over all those kids, all of them doing different things. But instead of spending the schools money on all that equipment, that's hardly ever used, send the kids to some sportsclub or something!
Just build one huge gym, especially for schools. One gym per *depends on how many schools there are in a certain diameter*. One that has things that include equipment for most of the interests of the kids (for example a mini skatepark, a little fitnesscenter, a pool, stuff for the the gymnasts and the dancers). For this idea there would have to be teachers too, of course, but with all the schools that share that gym, there's bound to be at least ONE teacher that knows how to handle one of the sports. And otherwise, at least there are enough teachers to keep an eye out for falling kids and everything.
Because of all the different schools, there are also a lot of new people to meet.
After school, in weekends (at least on Saturday) kids (and teachers) could go there, they'd just have to show their schoolpass and can go in for free.
Well that was my incredibly sudden burst of whatever.
The point I'm trying to make, is that school can be fun if we make it fun, but it can be even more fun if the school makes it more fun for us. Sure there can be certain things that are essential to learn for a future career, but how about mixing that up with some of the more fun stuff in the subjects, huh?
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Dreamy kiss
First of all, I want to say that I did make it with NaNo. I got to 10K! :D
Tonight I had a dream:
I was somewhere, with some people. I think it was with my niece, my best friend. (The point is, I knew one person and the other people were friends of that person, people I didn't know.) So we got to a place. It was outside and there were benches, like the ones you have in the park. I'm a little short and have the habit rather to stand on benches and chairs than to sit on them (I sit on tables) in public places. Like in the park, at school during the breaks, whatever.
So we're standing in some sort of failed circle and someone asks what we're going to do. My cousin and some other people start joking and talking and go stand by one bench and I stand on the one next to it. She talks to her friends and then I notice that guy who was walking slowly and just catchd up with the group again. He sees me and looks back at me while he walks towards me, still at the same pace. He gets closer to me and looks like he's daring me. I play along with the little game and accept his 'dare'. He's still walking and gets even closer. When he's standing right in front of me, at the point that he can't go any further because of the bench, he leans in and tips his head over a just a tiny little bit, then he waits. I lean in too, but don't go close enough to actually do anything. I look at him and make a little nod and a silent laugh. Meaning: "Alright, that's cool. You've got balls."
He's still looking with those same not-caring, bored, nonchalant eyes and casually puts his hand on my neck and kisses me. I kiss back, as if it's nothing, like I've done it a million times before. Inside I feel amazing, but normal too. I can go on forever, but somehow we've both stopped. We're both looking and acting as if nothing happened. It doesn't feel like anything happened actually. Right after the kiss he went back to pacing back and forth. He sighed and said he was bored.
Usually that would've been rude and I would've felt down or something, but I didn't. I didn't mind.
Tonight I had a dream:
I was somewhere, with some people. I think it was with my niece, my best friend. (The point is, I knew one person and the other people were friends of that person, people I didn't know.) So we got to a place. It was outside and there were benches, like the ones you have in the park. I'm a little short and have the habit rather to stand on benches and chairs than to sit on them (I sit on tables) in public places. Like in the park, at school during the breaks, whatever.
So we're standing in some sort of failed circle and someone asks what we're going to do. My cousin and some other people start joking and talking and go stand by one bench and I stand on the one next to it. She talks to her friends and then I notice that guy who was walking slowly and just catchd up with the group again. He sees me and looks back at me while he walks towards me, still at the same pace. He gets closer to me and looks like he's daring me. I play along with the little game and accept his 'dare'. He's still walking and gets even closer. When he's standing right in front of me, at the point that he can't go any further because of the bench, he leans in and tips his head over a just a tiny little bit, then he waits. I lean in too, but don't go close enough to actually do anything. I look at him and make a little nod and a silent laugh. Meaning: "Alright, that's cool. You've got balls."
He's still looking with those same not-caring, bored, nonchalant eyes and casually puts his hand on my neck and kisses me. I kiss back, as if it's nothing, like I've done it a million times before. Inside I feel amazing, but normal too. I can go on forever, but somehow we've both stopped. We're both looking and acting as if nothing happened. It doesn't feel like anything happened actually. Right after the kiss he went back to pacing back and forth. He sighed and said he was bored.
Usually that would've been rude and I would've felt down or something, but I didn't. I didn't mind.
Monday, November 24, 2008
NaNoNuts
I posted a comment on someone else's blog and that made me remember my own blog. So I'll just write a little bit now. :)
I want to eat nougat! (Just google some pics. :P) Ever tried it? It's amaaaaazing! The only problem for me is that the stuff I found has a lot of nuts in it. Or cherry pieces. I figured I probably wouldn't like one's with cherry, as I usually don't like fruit with candy (not meaning fruitflavored candy, but actual pieces of fruit in the sweets), so I bought the nougat with nuts. BIG MISTAKE! There were so many nuts in one little piece of nougat! It didn't taste good ánd I got an allergic reaction.
Yes, I have nut allergy. I'm especially sensitive to walnuts. Once my parents were crackin' some wallnuts in the livingroom, and even though our living isn't so large, I was sitting all the way on the other side and didn't even touch the nuts, but I still got a terrible allergic reaction! With other nuts it isn't that bad, thank god. Mostly nothing happens when I don't directly get in touch with the nuts, like for example in a Japanese nutmix (there's a coating of dough or something over the nut) or M&M's Nuts.
Anyhoo... I should actually be doing my homework right now. I have two presentations and a test tomorrow. (Damn school!)
Besides that, I also entered NaNoWriMo. It stands for National November Writing Month. It used to be national, it's been international for a very long time, but changing it into InNoWriMo just doesn't sound so great. It's a sort of a 'contest'. You can sign up for free at the site and the goal is to write a novel of at least 50,000 words by the end of November.
I forgot all about it this year (I signed up at about the tenth or eleventh or something) and then I didn't have any inspiration to write. Great combination.
I only have a little over 1K (1000 words) now. Someone did come up with a great motivation though: he listed all the people with 1K or less and promised, for every person in that list (30 people) that had 10K at the end of November, he'd donate $5 to NaNo.
Someone else thought it was such a great idea, she joined and decided to do the same. So now for everyone that has/had 1K or less and has 10K at 30 November, there will be donated $10.
A lot of people who are way passed 10K (including the donaters) still have to write 10K or 20K theirselves. They have to write for 50K, but it's still the same (even more) amount to write!
For myself, I'll do my best to finish that 10K! I think I'm the only one on that list that actually read the message, because a lot of the listed people probably already stopped with NaNo for this year or that don't come to the forum, but there was a PM sent to them.
I already left a message in the topic, so for myself (read: for my ego) I háve to finish that 10K! And to be positive: I already have a little bit more than 1K, so I have less than 9K to write!
I should really be starting on my homework, so how about I pretend to stop now and pretend to start doing my homework now, maybe it'll actually get finished then. (You know, just like with smiling: even a fake smile makes you a little happier.)
Wish me luck with my presentations!
xx
Ps: the irony, I just wrote about 620 words here.
I want to eat nougat! (Just google some pics. :P) Ever tried it? It's amaaaaazing! The only problem for me is that the stuff I found has a lot of nuts in it. Or cherry pieces. I figured I probably wouldn't like one's with cherry, as I usually don't like fruit with candy (not meaning fruitflavored candy, but actual pieces of fruit in the sweets), so I bought the nougat with nuts. BIG MISTAKE! There were so many nuts in one little piece of nougat! It didn't taste good ánd I got an allergic reaction.
Yes, I have nut allergy. I'm especially sensitive to walnuts. Once my parents were crackin' some wallnuts in the livingroom, and even though our living isn't so large, I was sitting all the way on the other side and didn't even touch the nuts, but I still got a terrible allergic reaction! With other nuts it isn't that bad, thank god. Mostly nothing happens when I don't directly get in touch with the nuts, like for example in a Japanese nutmix (there's a coating of dough or something over the nut) or M&M's Nuts.
Anyhoo... I should actually be doing my homework right now. I have two presentations and a test tomorrow. (Damn school!)
Besides that, I also entered NaNoWriMo. It stands for National November Writing Month. It used to be national, it's been international for a very long time, but changing it into InNoWriMo just doesn't sound so great. It's a sort of a 'contest'. You can sign up for free at the site and the goal is to write a novel of at least 50,000 words by the end of November.
I forgot all about it this year (I signed up at about the tenth or eleventh or something) and then I didn't have any inspiration to write. Great combination.
I only have a little over 1K (1000 words) now. Someone did come up with a great motivation though: he listed all the people with 1K or less and promised, for every person in that list (30 people) that had 10K at the end of November, he'd donate $5 to NaNo.
Someone else thought it was such a great idea, she joined and decided to do the same. So now for everyone that has/had 1K or less and has 10K at 30 November, there will be donated $10.
A lot of people who are way passed 10K (including the donaters) still have to write 10K or 20K theirselves. They have to write for 50K, but it's still the same (even more) amount to write!
For myself, I'll do my best to finish that 10K! I think I'm the only one on that list that actually read the message, because a lot of the listed people probably already stopped with NaNo for this year or that don't come to the forum, but there was a PM sent to them.
I already left a message in the topic, so for myself (read: for my ego) I háve to finish that 10K! And to be positive: I already have a little bit more than 1K, so I have less than 9K to write!
I should really be starting on my homework, so how about I pretend to stop now and pretend to start doing my homework now, maybe it'll actually get finished then. (You know, just like with smiling: even a fake smile makes you a little happier.)
Wish me luck with my presentations!
xx
Ps: the irony, I just wrote about 620 words here.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
26 Tabs
I thought I'd come by and see what happened to this blog.
I don't even remember putting the photo's of my room up. I thought I still had to do that, but apparently I already did.
The point of the photo's is to show the mess and the fact that I can actually live in it.
Oftentimes when I go over to a friends place, they apologize for the mess in their room, but I'm like: What mess? (And in my mind I laugh so hard, because they find thát messy, I can't imagine how stressed they must be keeping everything neat and clean or how they would go completely mental if they had to live in my room.)
I also put them up so you could see what it looked like (although it's difficult to see that on pictures -the room is about 2 x 4 meters I think).
So, I was really surprised about how much I already had on the blog, I expected way less, but maybe it just looks like a lot, because of the pictures. I really want to start writing regularly, but maybe that would be easier if I had some public and feedback. Doesn't matter though, I need to learn to write for myself too.
Moving on, last night (this morning actually) I joined an online group for people with ADD and ADHD. I got on the site because I was looking for information about hyperfocus and left a comment. Then I saw there were a lot of people there just like me in character and I really enjoyed that, so I just joined immediately. I'm not saying I necessarily have ADD, but chances are, I have. Undiagnosed of course, but if I'm not mistaken there is supposed to be some sort of test or appointment about it sometime soon.
I don't know why, but all of a sudden I had to think about Edward Scissorhands. (And while writing, I noticed how unlogical "scissors" is written.) A few weeks ago Edward Scissorhands was on tv so I looked up who made the movie. It was Tim Burton. I checked what other movies he had made and turns out I'm a big fan of him and his movies. Also he's made friends and a lot of movies with... Johnny Depp! Whose movies I also enjoy a lot. But enough about that.
At the moment I have 26 tabs open in Firefox. Two of them have been open for tree days now! I don't know if I already said this or if you've noticed, but I have quite a wide range of interests. I'll sum them up sometime soon. ('Soon' probably means in a few months...) But I have tabs about daydreaming, how to scream, a lot about hyperfocus and ADD, this and the first tab is... my mailbox of course.
It's exactly why I looked up 'hyperfocus': I can never concentrate on one thing. I always have to multitask. I get distracted too easily. That kinda goes like this:
First thing I do is checking my mailbox, sorting all the mail out and then read them. I read one thing, make some connection to something else (sometimes I put a lot of links really fast and to most people it doesn't make sense -sometimes it really is unlogical though) and I have to look up that thing right then and there, because otherwise I'll surely forget about it! So I leave my mailbox open and look up a picture (I look up pictures more often than I do information, probably because I'm more of a visual thinker). Then I try another way of describing the thing and see another picture I find interesting -there goes another search! Then eventually someone starts talking to me or I really have to go to the bathroom and something else catches my attention or I remember something or think I still had to check all my mail. So another search, or back to the mailbox. And sometimes -rarely though- I have some tabs open, that I should've closed three days ago, but I can't, because I still need to read it or see it or hear it or do it or whatever.
I think I'll work on closing those tabs now, I'll leave this open in case I really need to write something down that I need to share with the world.
I don't even remember putting the photo's of my room up. I thought I still had to do that, but apparently I already did.
The point of the photo's is to show the mess and the fact that I can actually live in it.
Oftentimes when I go over to a friends place, they apologize for the mess in their room, but I'm like: What mess? (And in my mind I laugh so hard, because they find thát messy, I can't imagine how stressed they must be keeping everything neat and clean or how they would go completely mental if they had to live in my room.)
I also put them up so you could see what it looked like (although it's difficult to see that on pictures -the room is about 2 x 4 meters I think).
So, I was really surprised about how much I already had on the blog, I expected way less, but maybe it just looks like a lot, because of the pictures. I really want to start writing regularly, but maybe that would be easier if I had some public and feedback. Doesn't matter though, I need to learn to write for myself too.
Moving on, last night (this morning actually) I joined an online group for people with ADD and ADHD. I got on the site because I was looking for information about hyperfocus and left a comment. Then I saw there were a lot of people there just like me in character and I really enjoyed that, so I just joined immediately. I'm not saying I necessarily have ADD, but chances are, I have. Undiagnosed of course, but if I'm not mistaken there is supposed to be some sort of test or appointment about it sometime soon.
I don't know why, but all of a sudden I had to think about Edward Scissorhands. (And while writing, I noticed how unlogical "scissors" is written.) A few weeks ago Edward Scissorhands was on tv so I looked up who made the movie. It was Tim Burton. I checked what other movies he had made and turns out I'm a big fan of him and his movies. Also he's made friends and a lot of movies with... Johnny Depp! Whose movies I also enjoy a lot. But enough about that.
At the moment I have 26 tabs open in Firefox. Two of them have been open for tree days now! I don't know if I already said this or if you've noticed, but I have quite a wide range of interests. I'll sum them up sometime soon. ('Soon' probably means in a few months...) But I have tabs about daydreaming, how to scream, a lot about hyperfocus and ADD, this and the first tab is... my mailbox of course.
It's exactly why I looked up 'hyperfocus': I can never concentrate on one thing. I always have to multitask. I get distracted too easily. That kinda goes like this:
First thing I do is checking my mailbox, sorting all the mail out and then read them. I read one thing, make some connection to something else (sometimes I put a lot of links really fast and to most people it doesn't make sense -sometimes it really is unlogical though) and I have to look up that thing right then and there, because otherwise I'll surely forget about it! So I leave my mailbox open and look up a picture (I look up pictures more often than I do information, probably because I'm more of a visual thinker). Then I try another way of describing the thing and see another picture I find interesting -there goes another search! Then eventually someone starts talking to me or I really have to go to the bathroom and something else catches my attention or I remember something or think I still had to check all my mail. So another search, or back to the mailbox. And sometimes -rarely though- I have some tabs open, that I should've closed three days ago, but I can't, because I still need to read it or see it or hear it or do it or whatever.
I think I'll work on closing those tabs now, I'll leave this open in case I really need to write something down that I need to share with the world.
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